My mother tells a story from my childhood. I was about 3 years old. She packed a picnic basket, and we met my dad where he was working out in the field and ate lunch together. She spread a blanket on the ground for me to play on. I was content with a toy until a grasshopper landed next to me. I screamed until she put me in the car, safe from flying insects.
This story came to mind Saturday as I walked at Arrowhead Park just outside of Sioux Falls. The trails meander through a restored prairie built around an old quarry. It was a sunny autumn day with the sounds of fall harvest carried on the breeze. Grasshoppers were thick in the air. Many of them flew around me on the paved pathway, and a few even landed on my clothes.
But this time, rather than being startled and feeling afraid, I rejoiced in their presence as a mirror of how far I have come in transforming my fear.
When I began spending time in nature about ten years ago, I still carried a lot of fear. I was afraid of grasshoppers, of course, but also spiders and snakes and encountering an animal (or even people) that might hurt me.
Over time as I became more grounded, I felt more secure with my surroundings. I could relax, enjoy being in nature, and open up to the healing energy, the peace, the discoveries. I trusted Mother Earth to keep me safe. A grasshopper could land on me, and I could see it as a fellow part of God’s creation, another visitor on Planet Earth to learn from.
And on Saturday, the grasshoppers carried a message:
When we jump headlong into the wind, we may get buffeted, taken on a detour, pushed in a direction we don’t want to go. If we persist, it takes a tremendous amount of our own energy to eventually get where we want to be. But when we take a leap with the wind and allow ourselves to be carried, we are propelled far further than we could go on our own.
I love reading your blogs Deb. You are such an incredible writer. I have the same issues I have a woods across the street I want to walk in it more often but I’m alone most of the time I too am worried about the people I might encounter there as we live in a area wehre many people walk their dogs and don’t leash them (even tho there is a big sign that says DOGS ON LEAH ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I love running across a snake (garters) or a deer or grasshoppers, squirrels, whatever. I’ve always loved nature and it’s creatures. But these people with their viscious dogs OFF LEASH spoil it for everyone. One day someone will get attacked maybe then something will be done. Hmmmmm I seem to have gone off on rant. Sorry. Anyway I loved this blog!